Happy vs Hate

Thursday,

5 Mac 2009,

2:44 pm,

Today....its kinda a little bit weird...n i dont understand....

its like today it wasnt me at all....

its like somethin a little badness has occured in me....

n its scared me a lot....

but...

i do learn a lesson...

a lesson which, Control Yourself....

n always remember Allah....

well the stories is........

today ive went to MSSD...at Padang Sulaiman...

well in the morning i went there with Pn A...n my fren...someone who call as Silly L....

well that time my mood and my statues is ok......

its normal...its me....

after arrive...

we sat together at the seats at Pdg S..

its normal no hard feelings with Silly L......

then L,F came...

they were like sooo not in mood when they saw Silly L....

well they sat beside me.......

n tell me story.

well thats not the point im tryin to tell...

when im with this gang....

i felt its not im used to be......

its like doesnt suites...its not suites...

but the thing i dont want to be.....

its like im another kind of fren.......

i missed my self......somethin came over me when im with them.......

n its haunted me till now.......

their nice but.......

attitude by making much noice

n rough word

or should i say rude.....

their bad attitudes...it juz...

i dont like that...

neither its fun beeing with them..

but what will the olders say about us or me....

what will my other frens think of me.....

what will my bestfren says if she see s this...

God.....i wish i had control.........

now....

i juz need adviced......

from "Her"...

my idol...

the person who i always respect....

the person who take care of me in my image n statues.....

but she s not here to talk with me........

i hope God will always be with me

to protect me

to keep me away from danger

n violence

n badness or worst

n from the hell of demon...

.............................i felt guilty..............................

i cant adviced or help them.................or helping myself........

her me

well today the happy is........

ive get to talk inthe phone with someone who i admired wth...hehehe